Goals

I, actually, let out a cackle of a laugh when I saw this. It kind of falls into some relevant feels I’ve been having lately about my life. So where shall I start?

I’m almost 26 (birthday is in April) and I have met nearly none of my goals for this part of my life. When I was a teenager I’d hoped to be in a house of my own, in a place I love, a decent car, with a bunch of dogs, a steady magical practice, a good paying job I AT LEAST liked, and possibly married. 

To date I have the dogs, I live in a relative’s old house, no car, no job, a random ass practice, I’m in my childhood town and I hate it, and I’m engaged. I feel like I’ve just hit a wall at this age where I feel like I’ve failed and have nothing to show for my years so far. I know it’s not true, but it’s how I feel. And we all know feelings don’t account for reality.

MY saving grace here is that I have a wonderful fiance’ who knows who I am and loves me all the more for it, and I am so fortunate for that. I have realized that Cernunnos is in my life and he keeps me sane and grounded when I feel lost and alone. I have been so very lucky in my life, and while I may not have everything I’d planned on I am still working my way towards those things. 

Thanks Anon. ❤