Things I’ve Learned About Gods

tinyrosemarysparrows:

Sometimes They introduce Themselves and explain why They are there.

Sometimes They give you no answers and expect you to figure it out yourself. It can take years to start seeing the big picture.

Gods can come for a specific reason.

They can come for no reason.

Sometimes you click really well with one and They teach you what They can, you share some memorable moments you’ll remember for the rest of your life, and then They leave without saying goodbye. You don’t hear from Them again. It takes time, but eventually you make peace with it.

Sometimes They go, but both of you fight tooth and nail to reunite. It takes so long to recover from that. You’re afraid to spend time with Them because you’re scared of losing that connection again. But you heal. You keep healing for a very, very long time.

They’ll ask you for favors. Some will give you nothing in return. Some will return with a gift long after you’ve forgotten about it. Some pay for the favor before They ask you to do something. You learn how to decline and accept favors. You learn which ones you’re content to do, even when They don’t seem to give you anything in return.

There will be a time when you make a beautiful offering. You’ll spend hours making it, having prepped for days before. You’ll pour your soul into it. You’ll offer it and They’ll politely accept it, but you can tell it doesn’t mean the same to Them.

There will be a time when you throw together something silly and small and don’t expect the gods to notice. But They do and They beam with pride and gratitude. It makes you wonder what offerings are to gods.

Gods will reject you. Sometimes it’s permanently. Sometimes They come back a year later and never leave.

You will reject a god. It will haunt you for a long time, but you won’t regret it.

When one comes in, the others assume They are welcome. You get used to unexpected guests.

No matter how long you study or how much you read, you will never truly understand. You don’t really know what it is you don’t understand and They never say, but it hangs in the absence of words.

There are many more beginnings than you would expect.

There are just as many endings. You’ll end up dreading losing something you’ll never lose. You’ll lose what you don’t worry about. You eventually learn how to grab onto the most important things and never let go.

They are in many things. They are in the sweet flowers and the singing birds. They are in the woman in front of you in the grocery store that you buy her groceries for her. They are in the cat that smacks you immediately after you make a joke at Their expense.

There are ones that go by one name, no names, and many names. There are names you will not be able to pronounce. You still try to.