Just Some Thoughts

AKA: Thought Vomit

What I write and post on this blog, ultimately, is for myself. It took me quite awhile to realize that little fact. I love my followers and mutuals and the fact that you are here means that on some level you relate to my seemingly insignificant ramblings and bitchings. I appreciate you all, truly, but it took a long time for me to really see that in the end I post for myself. 

Not everyone gives a damn about my journey of healing from the shit I’ve been through and that’s alright. Not everyone gives a crap about my beliefs and religion and that’s fine too. I still will write about them no matter how many people like or reply or comment on these things. Why? Because the things I write matter to me. 

Are there people who may relate to whatever I say in their own way? Maybe, who knows. Are there people out there who think I’m just in this for attention? Yep, there are. The thing is that they don’t truly know me any better than the next person. If they did they’d know that I let people know that I’m online and open to talk because I know what it’s like to feel like I have no one. I never want my followers and mutuals to feel like they are on this site alone and can’t open up about their days or ask questions about the things that they love. 

Do I like the attention? Sure! Who doesn’t? But helping someone who doesn’t know who to turn to is more rewarding than just being liked by strangers. That’s why I do it and those that only see an attention seeker haven’t really tried to look much deeper than their own insecurities. 

TLDR; I adore you all and I’m always here to help when you need answers or just someone to vent to. I post the things that mean something to me and I’m glad when they can resonate with you guys too. Thank you for being here and giving me a platform for my rantings and feels. 

💜