Lessons the Pluto Retrograde Taught Me

Pluto retrograde was definitely a transformative time for me, personally. I didn’t even realize it was in retro until I read something about it going direct soon. 
When I looked back on the last six months I realized the profound impact of it in hindsight, which as we all know is always 20/20. To see the changes I made and the ties I cut to help better myself… it’s amazing.

I literally dug out the metaphorical hooks that tied me to certain people and felt the pain physically in my body for a whole day. I left behind the connections to friendships I thought were unshakable and started to deal with the fallout I’d been left with. I forcibly removed someone I had thought of as my brother for a decade and let the wounds of his manipulative actions begin to heal finally. I started to take a long hard look at my relationship with my mother and admit that there are wounds there that need tending and healing.

All of these things were a long time coming and I can tell the difference it makes. There are a lot of hard lessons I’ve had to learn the last six months…
Like sometimes people hurt you because they’re hurting and sometimes they’re just self-centered manipulative assholes that don’t deserve you. It’s okay to admit your fault in a situation, but when there’s no closure to be safely had you have to move on and let shit go… It’s better for everyone that way. Realizing someone you loved, especially a parent, has been emotionally abusive for most of you life sucks… a lot. Those wounds take a lot of time to start healing and it’s okay to step back and take time to process things. 

I know now where the emotional heaviness of the last few days has come from (and my physical exhaustion too) it’s the realization that I’ve dealt with a lot of really heavy things and there’s still work to be done, but I’ve started the hard work of healing and I’m not about to turn back now. Thank you for reading.