Growing

havencraft:

As you grow, it is normal to realize how little you know. It is normal to look back at who you were and barely recognize yourself, and it is normal to not know what you will grow into. 

The tree does not recognize itself in the seed, and the seed does not recognize itself in the tree. And the sapling can look back to being a seed or look forward to being a fully grown tree, and not know how such a thing could be possible – either that it had once been so small, or that it would one day be so large.

But the seed was always a tree, and the tree is always a seed.

You are still a sapling and you are still growing. Be patient with yourself.