There was a point in time where everything I planned failed miserably. Date nights, shopping trips, time with friends, and even things I wanted to do by myself. If I planned it or looked forward to it it inevitably flopped. Things eventually got better after awhile, but at some point I just quit looking forward toContinue reading “I’m trying not to get my hopes up anymore. I want so desperately to feel excited about things but it seems like whenever I allow myself to be truly enthusiastic about something I get an equally negative reaction of crushing depression when it doesn’t work out. It’s become a risk to feel excitement and IDK. I think I just need some encouragement please because I’m feeling down. Sorry.”
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Sometimes I worry about myself as a person. Sometimes my depression and anxiety just take over and I can’t get a clear thought out. I want to hurt myself and cry but I know I can’t and I won’t. Finding myself as a pagan has really helped with it. But i still struggle sometimes :(
No one’s fight is the same as yours and no one can say they know what you’re going through, but a lot of us struggle with our illnesses and problems sometimes. Finding a niche like paganism and witchcraft can be a wonderful thing and help a lot, but they’re no replacement for treatment and professionalContinue reading “Sometimes I worry about myself as a person. Sometimes my depression and anxiety just take over and I can’t get a clear thought out. I want to hurt myself and cry but I know I can’t and I won’t. Finding myself as a pagan has really helped with it. But i still struggle sometimes :(“
I’m growing as a witch so much faster than my coven, I’m growing farther from them every day and they don’t even know it. I can’t tell them because they retaliate with comments that attack my witchy confidence. I just want so badly to be a high
Priestess, and I want so badly to get out there and join the fight against evil things, and help people. I feel like I have so much to learn and so much of my life waisted away that I feel like I have so little time to make up for all the time I lostContinue reading “I’m growing as a witch so much faster than my coven, I’m growing farther from them every day and they don’t even know it. I can’t tell them because they retaliate with comments that attack my witchy confidence. I just want so badly to be a high”
Thank you. She was disappointed that it had taken me a couple of months to tell her, but grateful that I didn’t let her find out on her own (possibly much later down the line). Of course, I lost some of her trust in this whole mess, but I’m going to work really hard to gain it back and I think I’ve definitely learned my lesson. (I won’t say what the other is doing, but I will say that if it got out to the family they would be really hurt and she would be in a lot of trouble.)
Yeah. I understand not putting that out there for privacy’s sake and all. Most people who get themselves into messes that deep aren’t thinking of anyone but themselves. That’s why I said maybe it’s better that you get your family away from what they’re doing. I hope you’re able to earn back that trust. It’s aContinue reading “Thank you. She was disappointed that it had taken me a couple of months to tell her, but grateful that I didn’t let her find out on her own (possibly much later down the line). Of course, I lost some of her trust in this whole mess, but I’m going to work really hard to gain it back and I think I’ve definitely learned my lesson. (I won’t say what the other is doing, but I will say that if it got out to the family they would be really hurt and she would be in a lot of trouble.)”
For the past couple of months I’d been keeping a really big secret from my wife regarding something her cousin was doing (and that I was stupidly allowing to happen). I finally broke down and told her everything last night because the stress/anxiety was killing me (we never keep secrets from each other). She was upset with me, understandably, and now wants nothing to do with her cousin. This kind of breaks my heart because her cousin used to be her best friend, then they had a rough patch (1/2)
and were recently trying to patch things up. I also know that when I tell the cousin, she’s likely not going to want to be my friend anymore and that makes me kind of sad, too, because we spent a lot of time together. But, at the end of the day… mainly I feel likeContinue reading “For the past couple of months I’d been keeping a really big secret from my wife regarding something her cousin was doing (and that I was stupidly allowing to happen). I finally broke down and told her everything last night because the stress/anxiety was killing me (we never keep secrets from each other). She was upset with me, understandably, and now wants nothing to do with her cousin. This kind of breaks my heart because her cousin used to be her best friend, then they had a rough patch (1/2)”
Is it uncommon to feel torn about my craft? I’m an extremely practical person who trusts my senses and it sometimes makes it hard to connect with the paranormal/higher plane. It’s not that I don’t believe, but because I can’t see or hear or touch it, I find it hard to believe. Maybe it’s why I’ve never worked with a deity before. I’ve had experiences outside the “normal” realm that I can’t deny, and I have faith in my own craft, but does it ever feel fake to anyone else? Like they’re playing?
I don’t think it’s all that uncommon. I feel that way sometimes myself. You do all these little gestures or chants and burn things and shake jars full of stuff and you feel like a total fool sometimes. It’s weird. With deities… I still have moments that I think I’m just nuts, but there’s beenContinue reading “Is it uncommon to feel torn about my craft? I’m an extremely practical person who trusts my senses and it sometimes makes it hard to connect with the paranormal/higher plane. It’s not that I don’t believe, but because I can’t see or hear or touch it, I find it hard to believe. Maybe it’s why I’ve never worked with a deity before. I’ve had experiences outside the “normal” realm that I can’t deny, and I have faith in my own craft, but does it ever feel fake to anyone else? Like they’re playing?”
I’ve been dating my boyfriend for almost two months, but we’ve been friends for three years. I’m a little afraid because I’ve never trusted anyone like this before, or fallen so hard. It feels so natural and right, it almost seems too good to be true
I’ve been there, Nonny. When I met my fiance I felt the same way. No one had ever treated me the way he did or showed me the kind of love he did. Where other guys were intimidated by me he saw someone he had love for. We were both rough around the edges, IContinue reading “I’ve been dating my boyfriend for almost two months, but we’ve been friends for three years. I’m a little afraid because I’ve never trusted anyone like this before, or fallen so hard. It feels so natural and right, it almost seems too good to be true”
Since I was robbed last week I’ve been anxious and afraid of leaving home. I got too caught in negative thinking and was leaving my chores aside. Needless to say my home’s spirit was not happy. They were like “you need to wash the floor” “when was the last time this kitchen saw a broom?” “look, there are dishes on the sink since morning” and I was like “not now, please” (1/2)
Yesterday I was washing some clothes and left the room for 5 minutes. The washing machine drain pipe “mysteriously” fell, leaving my kitchen all wet and soapy. This was totally their doing and I was so mad at first, but then I put some music on and had fun cleaning everything.I feel so much better!Continue reading “Since I was robbed last week I’ve been anxious and afraid of leaving home. I got too caught in negative thinking and was leaving my chores aside. Needless to say my home’s spirit was not happy. They were like “you need to wash the floor” “when was the last time this kitchen saw a broom?” “look, there are dishes on the sink since morning” and I was like “not now, please” (1/2)”
When I was younger I didn’t believe in straight people because I thought it was a choice to pick a single gender to like. Honest to God.
When I was a kid I didn’t think that who you loved had a name. I grew up with a gay brother and often went to PFLAG events. I knew many LGBT people (we’re talking when I was like 8 in the late 90s in Alabama) and when my mom explained that my brother likedContinue reading “When I was younger I didn’t believe in straight people because I thought it was a choice to pick a single gender to like. Honest to God.”
My mom and I have just started fostering kittens, and the first litter we got was about 4 weeks old. One of the kittens (the smallest one) just HAD to eat from every bowl we used or he wouldn’t be happy. If there weren’t enough bowls for him he would look up at us, stick his tongue slightly out and mew/moan at us. Now my mom and I mimic the expression to each other all the time.
Holy crap that’s adorable! Kittens and puppies are just so freaking cute with their weird little habits! Thank you for sharing! ❤
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